Stevie Nicks said you can feel really old at 27. I can vouch for that. You can feel really old even when you're a kid. I'm 32 now. It feels like I've been alive too long while also not living enough. Every time I get close to love, greater pain is not far behind. I am still here for now. Trying again, this time. I've never been great at performing and now I'm years out of practice, this is probably the best I can do at the moment.